When did I become such a negative person? I open my mouth and all I do is complain. I don’t like being like this. My needs aren’t being met because…well, I don’t want to get into it now. I tell myself to smile. I practice it in the mirror. I tell myself I’m happy. I look around me and feel gratitude for the things I have.
The people in my life, though, that’s where all my trouble resides. I love them. I do. They love me. I know that much. They love spending time with me, but I feel their pain and I’m frustrated because I can’t help them. I can’t make them feel better. That’s beside the things that annoy me about each and every one of them. I try to keep it in because I tell myself this is how they are. Then I wonder what they are bothered from me about and it makes me even more anxious. Do I want them to tell me about things that annoy them about me? Things that I most probably can’t or won’t change? No. I’d rather not know. I want to tell them what bothers me about them, but I also want to avoid conflict and I know telling them won’t do any good because they won’t change.
Anyway, my focus right now is getting my 6-year-old son to eat breakfast. He woke up at 10 am and refuses to eat anything. He is lazily on the couch as if he is still asleep. I just suggested to him to go play with his toys, and thankfully he did. He loves to pretend play. Mornings and evenings have become a frustration to me because at night my son refuses to sleep until 11 pm and in the morning he refuses to eat until 11 am. Hopefully, if and when school starts, his sleep schedule will get better.
For now, I wanted to share a few motivating quotes I found on Pinterest. It’s one of the things I do when I feel down, search motivating quotes on Pinterest. I probably have more than 10,000 of these on my laptop and I made some as well, but searching in itself gives me joy. So if you’re feeling down or frustrated or demotivated, I hope these help.
Terrible things are happening in the world right now. Poverty. Wars. Crime. So many negative events and I’m not saying to turn a blind eye and live in blissful ignorance, but rather adopt solution-oriented thinking. Sitting around and complaining never helped anyone