My son has been psyched about his birthday for a while. According to him, when he turns 7, he is practically going to be a grown up, and he started “practicing” how to be a grown up by getting dressed on his own, going to the bathroom on his own, using a knife to cut food, and basically doing the things he already knows how to do but is usually too lazy to do them. However, he found this practice pretty exhausting to keep up, and suddenly he was tired or didn’t feel like it. Sometimes I would remind him that he needed to do things on his own even when he was tired or didn’t feel like it because that’s what big boys do. Yesterday he insisted on doing everything on his own because he was almost 7 and he needed to grow up.
I didn’t get him a toy for his birthday but I did get him 7 items of junk food because he was turning 7 and I told him I wish I could bring you a toy. However, my in laws are planning to throw him a birthday party next week so that’s something.
Today I woke up at 9:15 and soon enough I had a migraine and was in pain. I still am. I didn’t take pain meds yet but if I go to my in laws today, im going to have to. My mood is sour as well today. On the bright side, my son is getting really good at playing chess. I made him birthday pancakes/crepes. I always make him crepes on Sunday but today I told him they were birthday crepes. I also let him play a new game I downloaded and let him eat a snicker bar so he is good, for now.
I’m currently doing a family time 21 days challenge. We are supposed to do yoga together today. Anyway, I hope I won’t have to go to in-laws today. That way I can binge-watch The Flash.
Yay! I was able to stay home (in case you didn’t notice, this post wasn’t written all at once, but every few hours I added to it), no offense in-laws. I just feel I can’t people today. It’s odd because I was getting better, and my pain was much less the past few days. But today I’m in pain. I made a to do list. Had I went to my in laws, I wouldn’t have been able to get anything done and my frustration would just boil over.
Anyway, this post is about my son on his birthday. He wanted to feel special on his birthday, so I let him wear brand new pajamas last night and a brand new outfit today. I forgot to take pics. I guess I’ll just take a picture when he gets back. He also got a haircut yesterday so there’s that.
I’m enjoying my me time, but im missing my son. So far I finished the Google trends course (proud of my accomplishment), chapter 4 of “The Dance of Anger” (I’ve been reading that book too slowly because I haven’t been able to apply it properly). Being home alone is safe, between 4 walls. Why am I craving human interaction while avoiding it at all costs?
I watched 1 episode of The Flash today. I want to watch another one but I need to feel productive 1st. I’m reading 1 blog post every hour or so, and I think I will do yoga and meditation now. Then I’ll feel like I deserve to watch another episode, and it’ll ease the guilt I feel for eating a bag of m&ms, a big bag of chips, and a package of cookies instead of lunch (I feel sick to my stomach). My initial pain subsided but my movements are slow and painful. I’m going to do yoga and meditation now.
The yoga and meditation helped a little.
I’m going to watch another episode of The Flash before they get back. After that, I’ll either read blogs or play cards or something with my son. I definitely need to spend more time with him in the future. He is growing up so fast and I don’t want to be disconnected from him.
Tomorrow he has a day off. Maybe we can watch a movie together. That should be fun. But for now, escapism calls my name.
Update: They came back, with cake a popcorn, and told me they threw him a birthday party without me, and only after I burst into tears did they tell me that it was a prank.
I also played chess on the phone with my son.