Hello reader and welcome to my blog! You may have noticed I have been blogging more often lately. Maybe I need someone to talk to without feeling like a burden. A lot of my friends are going through things and I feel that if I share my happiness, it’s like im shoving it in their face. From experience, I have learned that sharing enough of your woes, but not too much, makes others feel better about their lives. It makes them see that everyone has problems, and they’re not alone.
I don’t need to tell you my problems. I’ve gone on and on about them for a while now, so there’s no point in reiterating. My problems are still the same, but im dealing with them differently. I’m not allowing anyone to pull me into their black hole of negativity, or into another power struggle (though im still playing tug-a-war on that one). I have many deeply buried family issues I still need to address, thanks to The dance of anger for pointing that out.
But guess what? I’m cultivating healthy coping mechanisms and focusing on my goals. I’m reading. I’m writing. I’m being mindful with my husband and son. I’m adding products to my store (for some reason they won’t let me embed links).
I’m yet to type in my novella today. I’m not good with details, and I haven’t found a way to suddenly get good at it. Maybe I can take a course, but not now. Ramadan is in 2 weeks and I must prepare. I’m feeling anxious that nobody is buying from my store. Please do check out my online shops and let me know which products you like and what improvement I can make. This is my 1st time opening a business and I could use all the feedback I can get. My creativity has burst in ways I didn’t know we’re possible. Photography has always been a hobby of mine but I have a new eye for photography since I opened the shops. I began making canva designs for my books a long time ago, but im getting really into design and im enjoying it.
Anyway, the point of this post is that I was feeling a bit overwhelmed. Not sure if I should meditate 1st, watch Malcolm in the middle (I finished season 2 of The flash yesterday and I won’t start season 3 until after Eid because I want to focus on spiritual things in Ramadan), or exercise 1st. So I looked outside and found it was sunny, so I decided to go for a walk. I went to the park 20 minutes walking from my house and it was such a good walk. I hadn’t gone in a long time so I was afraid it would be closed. It was almost empty but it was open. I strolled the greenery and admired the sky and flowers. I took many pictures and videos. It was very therapeutic. Truly nature heals. I feel so much better.
As soon as I got home, I felt sleepy. I think I will count the walk as my exercise for the day, which means I will try typing a bit and then reward myself with another episode of Malcolm in the middle. I’ve been doing therapy sessions on the app being. I recorded the screen and posted them on YouTube, but had to delete them as they were copyrighted. These sessions are done by an AI and are like guided meditations with self-reflections and little action items to do like “write down the 3 most important things you want to do today”. It’s proved very beneficial. I have done 3 so far. I don’t know if I will be able to do one today, but I will try. My anxiety is already starting to come back. I will turn on my laptop and get to work now. In the meantime, feast your eyes on the pictures I took at the park.
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