Are you a talker or a listener?

It’s been 3 days since my last post. I’ve been in a negative headspace. Yesterday was nice, though. My mom and sisters got back from Turkey and brought me unexpected gifts.

But I wake up every day and read novels on my phone for hours, and then I close the binds so I can sleep. I don’t feel productive. I’m using the self-care app and doing the tasks. They’re giving me temporary thrills. My life is too much of a routine and I need some excitement, some adventure.

I crave inner peace. I’m not in the mood to read blogs lately. Too overwhelming for me. I just want to crawl in a hole and cry. Looks like the depression is back. I’m tired all the time. I need to do that quiz again soon, the one that determines what kind of tired I am. I’m still eating too much chocolate. I don’t feel cherished or appreciated. I feel lonely. I feel like a failure.

I didn’t want to write a post today because I didn’t want my negative energy to seep into my words. I’m trying so hard to be positive. I want to love myself and feel worthy, achievements aside, but I’m not being able to. Today is Sunday so it’s in-law day. Week after week I’m dreading these visits. Despite their kindness to my son, I find myself dreading their company. It’s nothing personal. I usually avoid people I can’t be myself around, which is almost everyone. Even my family, while they are telling me of their escapades at the airport and I listened and interacted with them, I waited for the question I long to hear from them “how are you?” But it never came. So long as they said what they had to say, conversation over. My dad is the opposite. He wants to know everything but won’t tell me anything. That bothers me equally, if not more. It makes me not want to talk.

The moral of the story is, are you more of a talker or a listener? Or a bit of both? Or does it depend on who you are with?

14 responses to “Are you a talker or a listener?”

  1. Totally depends n who I’m with

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  2. I’m mostly a talker. I should spend more time listening

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    1. There’s nothing wrong with being a talker, but active listening is a leadership skill worth practicing👍

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      1. Exactly right Sajjida

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  3. I’m sorry you’re not feeling well, but it’s good that you posted here anyway.

    I’m more of a listener than a talker, and I feel like writing works better to express myself than talking does.

    Hugs ❤️

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    1. Thanks. I listen more with talkers and talk more with listeners if that makes sense. Thanks for reading and commenting 😊

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  4. I’m in my cabin and isolated for a month trying to overcome my feeling and i still into it. so, trust me. you have partner.

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  5. Maybe I bit too much of a talker but just like you when I detect silence on the listeners part I start to clamp up. I am equally very honoured when someone who is usually introverted suddenly starts speaking and then I go silent forcing myself not to interrupt them or spoil their flow.
    Its o.k. to have periods of non productiveness. I just read someone elses blog about the sound of silence and that seems to be what you are afraid of. Doing nothing in silence. Ironically its those periods that can become the basis for future inspiration and productivity. Allow yourself to feel whatever emotion is welling up inside of you. Its ok to feel sad, to cry and I honestly believe there is some secret ingredient in that chocolate that your body needs. If you want to limit it try buying and eating pure dark chocolate it will both satisfy your craving and stop you from binging on it 😃. Some people suffering depression don’t even realise it, thats even worst and the app in itself is part the problem. Sometimes thats just when we need to do the opposite completely disconnect from the virtual world and reconnect with the real natural world.
    Sorry I am breaking all the rules how to respond to womens concerns, instead of giving advice you just want reassurance that someone is listening to you. …
    We hear you my sister.

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    1. Thank you so much for your comment. Not breaking the rules at all! Your advice is very welcome and you are absolutely right, except for the end saying women only want validation. Sometimes women need advice. Don’t worry about it. You were very gentle and encouraging with your advice. Nature walks do help me but I don’t get to do them often. I need a travel vacation but sadly it’s not in the cards in the foreseeable future.

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  6. It honestly depends on who I’m with. I struggle with selective mutism, and if I am not comfortable around someone, I tend to freeze up due to anxiety. If I am comfortable, I’m a complete goofball and highly energetic talking 90 miles an hour. I wanted to take a moment and express how much I enjoy your blog. It’s a breath of fresh air. I really like how raw and truthful you are, even when feeling down. Never force yourself to always feel positive, it’ll only lead to more depression. Just feel how you feel in the moment and keep telling yourself this too shall pass. Even perceived negative thoughts can hold so much value and truth. Being positive all the time can blind you to the beauty of duality ❤ Sometimes when we feel unproductive it's our body telling us we need a moment to rest. It took me a long time to realize my body does speak to me, but only if I slowed down enough to listen. Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts with us and I hope you feel better soon.

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    1. Thank you so much for reading and commenting. It’s comments like these that motivate me to keep writing.

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