I think it’s a cycle. When you’re feeling down for a while, meaning more than 2 weeks, you tend to neglect yourself. You stop drinking water. You don’t eat much healthy food. You don’t exercise. It also weakens your immune system. This in turn weakens your body and causes sickness.
Also, when you’re sick, as I am now with covid (my husband is doing much better but now my in laws are catching it one by one), you can’t do much but rest. And idle hands lead to overthinking and negative thoughts, and suddenly you’re feeling blue.
Now I’m not saying depression caused my illness, but my being depressed when I caught covid definitely helped the symptoms to manifest. And after being sick for 4 days, and having not left the house for 8 days, yesterday and today, my mind has been pretty dark. I will spare you the details. Besides, with no electricity and in this heat, having just mopped the house and exhausted myself, I barely have the energy to keep my eyes open.
I just wanted to check in, I guess, and give myself a break from my negative thoughts, and acknowledge these thoughts for what they are, just thoughts.
I have a lot of work to do, but I’m waiting till I feel better and until I get a new laptop. At this rate, I may not get another laptop until I’m 40. Anyway, random thoughts time:
I saw a video posted by Will Smith on his Instagram and I was shocked that since the slap happened, he hadn’t had any videos or appearances and he filmed a video and seemed like he was breaking. Apparently, Chris Rock still won’t talk to him, after 4 months of the incident. It’s hard living in the public eye. You get paid for how much people like you, and you make one mistake, and people discount all the good you’ve done.
Can I just say this is the most boring summer ever? I want to travel and go places. I’m going to take a nap now. This cough medicine makes me sleepy.