How to manifest what you want by coloring

Hello and welcome to my blog! I’ve been reading a lot of blogs lately (trying to catch up) and several posts in the past few days were about complaining. They said that the more you complain about something, the more you invite it into your life.

It really made sense to me. I have noticed that I have been complaining about all the things I can’t have, and I don’t fail to mention in every post the situation in Lebanon. I don’t go to the extent of some people who all they talk about is how expensive things are getting, but I have been complaining about not being able to go out and about, and guess what? I’m still not going out and about. In fact, Lebanon has been in lockdown for 2 days but it feels like forever.

Okay enough complaining.

Now in those blog posts I read, they mentioned that to get what you want, you must practice gratitude for what you have, and thus invite more of that in your life because what you focus on grows. They also said something about coming from a place of abundance instead of coming from a place of lack by acting as if you already have what you want.

Go to Be Inspired for more on that.

Anyway, the idea was that by coming from a place of abundance, you will manifest these things into your life.

Side note: I also listened to a bunch of coffee talk podcasts by kayln’s coffee talk and she talked about non attachment and how it gives you inner peace. She recommended the book “The courage to be disliked” which I have as a pdf but haven’t read yet. Back to the topic at hand, gratitude and manifesting.

I have been practicing gratitude for a while, but it doesn’t seem enough to stop me from complaining. I would say I’m grateful for food and shelter, but I’m mad that I can’t drive yet (I have a license but don’t have a car and my husband won’t let me use his because I haven’t had much practice yet).

I also realized that it was really difficult for me to visualize having what I want. I don’t know how to do a vision board. I could easily learn but it doesn’t interest me for now. I can’t even visualize myself on my death bed!

However, I had a Eureka moment while coloring on my phone (I use this app called Happy Color which my sister showed me a year ago but I hadn’t used in about 6 months) and I realized I’m coloring the things that I want in my life. I decided to manifest these things through the pictures I color. I already colored a few and I’ll share them here to help manifest them into my life.

Happiness. I suffer from bouts of anxiety and depression and I would like to have a positive mindset and pure joy regardless of circumstances. I manifest a positive mindset into my life.
Speakers. What does the image of the “Inside Out” movie have to do with speakers? The speakers on my laptop are ruined and I’ve been using earphones for 2 months. My son is 6 and so I won’t put earphones in his ears. I have the movie Inside Out on my laptop and my son wants us to watch it together. We can only watch it if the speakers get fixed, but in the current economic situation, it’s too expensive to fix them. My husband got me external speakers that work via bluetooth but turns out my 9 year old laptops bluetooth doesn’t work and my laptop needs formatting. He returned the speakers then decided not to get different speakers, nor format my laptop. I manifest a format or speakers into my life.
This image looks nice. A girl swinging contently on a swing tied to a tree with a cat nearby. Personally, I don’t like cats and swings make me dizzy, but I look at this picture and I see an idea for a novel. I’ve never written a novel before, but you never know, right? Also, when I think of a novel, I remember my other books, but instead of complaining from lack of sales, I manifest book sales and writing a novel into my life.
I love picnics. I haven’t gone on a picnic in 6 years. I manifest going to the same spot I went last time.

There’s also one more thing I’m trying to manifest, but it’s personal and it’s big so I’ll keep it to myself, but I manifest it into my life (said with not as much confidence as the other manifestations).

What are you going to manifest into your life?

End note: manifesting does not mean you don’t work hard towards getting what you want. Nothing is served on a silver platter. Manifesting is the attitude you adopt instead of complaining in order to invite things into your life via Law of Attraction (I read The secret a long time ago).

Motivational Monday: Do more things that bring you joy

Hello and welcome to my blog! I’m one of those few people who love Mondays. They signify a new week and a new beginning, but I know that sometimes it’s hard to find the motivation to kickstart your week.

I usually start the week excited but my excitement plummets on Tuesday. I give myself a pep talk on Wednesday. On Thursday I can’t wait for the weekend. Friday is my only me day so obviously I love FriYays. Saturday is family day (my favorite day of the week) and Sunday is a cheap imitation of Saturday.

So for anyone who needs some Monday motivation, I found some spring themed motivation on Canva.

Bloom where you are planted
Despite the forecast, live like it’s spring. Make sure to find joy in the smallest of things in your life.
Spring will come and so will happiness. Hold on. Life will get warmer.

Also, a reminder in these difficult times to do more things that bring you joy.

Watch the sun go down. Do yoga. Watch your favorite tv show. Shower. Clean and tidy your surroundings. Read a chapter from a book. I did all these today and it did wonders for my mood. It’s 9pm and the battle of bedtime shall begin now. Wish me luck.

Update: My son went to bed at 10:15 but is still awake.

I did a 21 day happiness challenge

Hello and welcome to my blog! Yesterday I finished a 21 day happiness challenge and I’m telling you, I’m loving these challenges! They are really helping me with my self esteem and they are a creative way of self care for me.

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My 21 day happiness challenge

Day 1

Listen to your favorite song. I listened to “All night by R5”

A little bit of love will change your life
She said I’m outta my head, I’m going outta my mind
And when I’m out on the edge will you save me, save me
Can we live for the moment, can you live for tonight
Can we forget what was broken and say say say we’ll be
All right
‘Cause even if we change we’ll always be the same
All night
I promise if you stay we’ll never fade away
All night

All night by R5

Day 2

Spend less time on your phone.

I was doing the social media detox simultaneously so this wasn’t so hard.

Day 3


I was really struggling to motivate myself that day and this was the motivation I needed.

Day 4

Cook the dinner.

In Lebanon, lunch is dinner and dinner is lunch, so I made a peanut butter and chocolate spread sandwich.

Day 5

Hug someone you love.

This was harder than you’d think. I’m a hugger, but hello! We’re in the middle of a pandemic. I’m not seeing any friends and I’m not hugging any of my family, except for my husband and son who live with me. My husband was in a “don’t hug me” mood so I only got to hug my son.

Day 6

Watch a funny movie.

I did this on day 7 because day 6 my son was attached to my hip and the movie I wanted to watch was on my laptop and the speakers are ruined on my laptop so I had to use my earphones and it’s not good for kids to use earphones (so I’ve heard).

Day 7

Call a friend.

Done on day 14. I called a friend of mine who lives abroad and we talked for 2 hours! We hadn’t talked in 2 months!

Day 8

Dance like nobody’s watching.

I did this on day 9 because on day 8 I wasn’t able to. I danced to Boom Boom by Justice crew

Day 9

Go out into nature and be an explorer for a day.

I live in the city and the only park in my area is closed due to COVID-19, but on day 18, I took a walk with my son and looked at spring flowers.

Day 10

Buy a gift for someone you love.

I didn’t leave the house that day so I couldn’t do it, but I came back to it on day 21. I bought a toothbrush for my husband. I know that sounds like nothing, but gifts don’t have to be grand gestures. I saw he needed a new tooth brush and surprised him with it when he was out. I knew he would go ages with the old toothbrush if I didn’t.

Day 11

Try yoga.

I hadn’t done yoga in a while, but I did it that day. It felt good. I should do yoga more often.

Day 12

Go to bed and wake up early.

I went to bed at 10:30pm the night before (as opposed to my usual midnight sleeping) and I woke up at 8am (instead of 9am).

Day 13

Read something inspiring.

I read from chapter 4 of The 7 habits of highly effective people and also from What are you optimistic about about how technology is bringing people together through blogs.

Day 14

Meditate for 10 min.

Done. I’ve been meditating 3 times a week all month this month. Try Serenity app for free guided meditations.

Day 15

Plan a future vacation.

Does dreaming about going to Turkey and booking an airbnb count?

Day 16

Try a new recipe or cook your favorite meal.

I cooked one of my favorite meals, okra, on day 17.

Day 17

Watch the sunset.

I did this on day 18. It was windy and foggy and the sun was barely visible but I saw it. I also watch the sunset often but this was a good reminder as I don’t do it everyday.

Day 18

Connect with an old friend.

I didnt know who to talk to. Several university friends came to mind. I picked one of them and texted her. She texted back. It was nice.

Day 19

Tell people how much they mean to you.

I wrote a blog post to you, my readers.

Day 20

Try something new.

I made a business account on pinterest for my author page on Amazon. It’s still empty of pins though. I still have a lot of work to do.

Day 21

Go for a walk outside.

It was raining yesterday but I did it anyway. I went at a time that it wasn’t raining, but it was cold and windy. I basically went to the supermarket and back.

The whole point of this challenge was to do things that made me happy, by focusing on things within my circle of influence. Circumstances aren’t great in Lebanon at the moment, and as helpless as I feel towards the economic and political situation, I can’t let this all drag me down into depression.

I hope things get better soon in Lebanon and in the whole world. So many other countries are struggling with poverty and war and famine and other things. I hope to be the change I wish to see in the world and I can’t be that change if I’m drowning in depression.

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Zero social media: what does that mean to you?

Zero social media

What does that mean to you?

To me, the social media I use are instagram, twitter and facebook. I don’t count whatsapp as social media because I use it to communicate with my family and friends. I don’t put many statuses or change my profile picture often so I don’t use it as a social media platform. I use Twitter mainly to share my blog posts, and when someone I follow posts something, I get notified and like or retweet without going into Twitter. I rarely go onto Facebook. So my main focus today was to not go onto instagram, no matter how hard it was for me, and I did it!

It was hard though. I never realized how many times I thought of instagram before. I’m not one to cyberstalk people, but I do like posting things. I like to share. Why? I don’t know. Sometimes it’s out of loneliness. Sometimes to see who cares. Sometimes to share my joy because my cup is overflowing. Sometimes it’s because I know I’ll get likes.

I gave up on trying to “grow” my instagram account a long time ago. I’m having better luck with the blog, honestly. I guess it’s easier to sift the people who care on the blog. I’m always sniffing out for fake friends. To me, a real friend would read all my blogs. They’d find the time. Or at least read half of them, or some.

A lot of people who don’t care about me and don’t wish me well stalk me on instagram. I know this because I see them viewing my stories. I know a lot of people view my posts but don’t click like. It used to bug me so much. Sometimes I wouldn’t post something just because I didn’t want them to see it. I’m aware I could just remove them from my followers but how would that make me look, right?

Anyway, I’m aware I’m going down a rabbit hole right now, so back to the topic. Today everytime I took a picture, the 1st thought on my mind was “this is instagram worthy”. Oh boy. When did I become that person? Or was I always that person? I’m not judging. I know a lot of people make a living on instagram. I know a lot of people like to share just to share and don’t care about likes. I used to be like that. I hope one day I go back to not caring about likes, but here’s the thing.

I go between extremes. Sometimes I want to be so private I don’t want to post anything about my life on instagram and I even become secretive with family and friends for fear of the evil eye and such, and other times I want to post every meal I eat and every sunset and everytime the sky looked pretty and talk about that cute thing my son did and if a family member or friend would ask about my day I would proceed to word vomit. I’m working on finding my in between, but for now, I’m in the middle of a social media detox challenge and I’m itching to open instagram but I can’t and I’m currently not very close with my family members or any friends so all I have is you dear reader to share with, so here it goes:

I had a good day today.

The situation in Lebanon is terrible and all signs point to things getting worse but I’m focusing on my health, my husband and son, and my personal development. I haven’t been reading much but I’m on season 5 of This is Us. It’s awesome. I only have access to the 1st 9 episodes though and I’m going to watch the 9th episode tomorrow morning because it’s late tonight and I’m tired.

I took a walk with my son today because it was 26Β°C outside. I had a good time. We walked a lot. It’s windy now at 11pm and they say it’ll rain tomorrow.

I also exercised and meditated today. I started my day feeling very negative but everything switched around as soon as I exercised and meditated. Also my husband telling me “everything is going to be okay. Don’t think about anything” was the mood lifter for me. Now he’s the one in a bad mood. I wish I could help but you know, men go into their caves…

Today was my former best friend’s birthday. I wished her a happy birthday and was really nice to her but it hurt so much. I don’t think she knows we’re not best friends anymore. We keep acting like we’re still best friends but we’re not. We’re still friends though. Kind of. I haven’t seen her in a year, except on my birthday when she gave me a birthday gift at my doorstep and left.

I bought a strawberry tart cake today. It used to be 6,000LL a year ago. Today I bought it for 22,000LL. That’s almost x4.

The economic and political situation is very stressful. Add to that COVID-19 and no schools…

I realized this morning that I’ve become extremely negative and it’s exhausting so I’m putting in extra effort to be more positive.

Enjoy this galleria of photos I wanted to post on instagram today but couldn’t because zero social media (does wordpress count as social media?)

I may still post them on instagram tomorrow if I still feel like it

What does zero social media mean to you?

What is something new/exciting/interesting going on in your life right now? Is there something you need to vent about or any questions you have? Comment below. I’m here.

Poetry Friday: Pockets of sunshine

Hello and welcome to my blog! I’m feeling extremely happy this morning. I don’t know how to explain it (the poem below explains my feelings), but I felt this way yesterday too.

I played Ludo and Uno with my son several times yesterday and just admired how he talks and plays and I let go of the neurotic side of me for a bit and I was so happy. Then the moment I tried to read blogs, my son switched to annoying mode and the happiness was gone. Then someone else ruined my mood further and I sulked the evening away.

I even woke up at dawn crabby and went back to bed, not wanting to be productive. Then I woke up at 8am, in a bad mood, but 5 minutes later, my son woke up and he was in a really good mood because he saw what was for breakfast and was so happy for the surprise, so he said.

This instantly put me in a good mood and I’ve been in a good mood ever since. My birds are tweeting. I had my coffee and enjoyed it. I feel like I’ve never been happier.

That’s how it is with me. When I’m happy, I’m on top of the world, and when I’m sad, I’m in the trenches. I know something or someone may come along at any moment and spoil my mood, but I’m riding this high for 2 hours and counting. I was even in such a good mood that I drew my son an astronaut and a rocket (if you’ve read my previous blogs, you know how much I don’t enjoy drawing).

I am only sharing my happiness here on the blog because you are my safe space. The situation in Lebanon is worsening but right now, I’m safe at home, with my adorable son, and I will enjoy this feeling for as long as I can. It’ll probably end when I have to convince my son to finish his breakfast (he eats in intervals) and to do his homework (he hates homework).

Pockets of sunshine

I got pockets of sunshine
Up my sleeve
I use them when I try
To be happy

When I’m living in the moment
And my heart feels so full
I just slow down and own it
Because it feels so good

Don’t feel the need to share
I’m living without a care
For a minute or two
Because pretty soon

I’ll be wrapped up in anxiety
And weighed down by depression
My thoughts will get the best of me
And they’ll come out in aggression

So when I have a moment of joy
With myself, my husband or boy
I will keep it to myself
Won’t tell anybody else

Nobody needs to know
When I heal, I grow
I can count on my fingers the times I didn’t feel inferior
These pockets of sunshine are ethereal*

I gaurd them with my heart, try to lock them with a key
But like a butterfly, they tend to come and go
So I cherish every moment as they come to me
Embracing all the highs and treading** through the lows

  • *ethereal means extremely delicate and light in a way that seems not to be of this world.
    ** treading means walking on or along.

I hope you enjoyed this poem. Another poem will be posted tonight (I wrote it a few days ago and scheduled it for tonight) so stay tuned.

Click here to read more of my poems.

Motivational Monday: Quotes and Life Lessons from Jay Shetty

Hello πŸ‘‹ reader and welcome to my blog! Today I’m going to share quotes from my 2nd favorite motivational speaker, Jay Shetty. I follow him on YouTube and Instagram and listen to his talks. They’re like a guided meditation. So insightful. Enjoy.

Here is one of my favorite videos of his on YouTube:

Do you find it motivating to read quotes or listen to motivational talks?

For me, the most effective motivational talks are videos, then podcasts, then written quotes.

Motivational Monday: The Power of Design

Hello πŸ‘‹ reader and welcome to my blog!

Today I thought I’d share some designs I made on canva (an application). The purpose of me making these designs was to uplift myself and others. I tried putting them on instagram but they didn’t get much hype. However, making them helped with my mood (which wasn’t so great yesterday and definitely not great today).

I have a lot to do but I don’t feel like doing anything. So I’m writing to motivate myself and you to just maybe calm down and be more mindful.

I read motivational quotes all the time, but I noticed the pretty ones make me feel better, so it’s not just about the words, but the colors and shapes. I see these things on pinterest and instagram all the time and with a bit of encouragement from a dear friend, I started making them myself. I still need much improvement as I almost always start with a template, but I hope these images and words helps brighten πŸ”† up your Monday!

Did you like these designs?

Did the words have a bigger effect because of the designs?

How did this post make you feel?

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Storytime: I was very mindful today

Hello πŸ‘‹ reader and welcome to my blog!

How you doing today?

I’m so excited to share my thoughts and I’m afraid that I might forget them because I got them while cleaning the bathrooms (I listen to podcasts while I clean the bathrooms because I don’t like cleaning the bathrooms but I like the feeling that I get after I clean the bathrooms- so clean and shiny) so I stopped to write this.

I was listening to a podcast and they were giving relationship advice about mindfulness and about a how you need to sit with your spouse 5 minutes a day and just be mindful together and connect with each other, so it got me thinking that today I was very mindful (I’ll talk about that in a minute) but I was also reflecting upon my relationship with my husband.
There are things I can’t write here but basically what I can tell you is that I am very emotional and a hot head but at the same time I work really hard to connect with my husband emotionally and listening to the podcast got me thinking “oh wow! I really do some of these things. I actually I go to my husband and tell him I want to connect. I feel like we connect when we sit together in the evenings and I feel like when I don’t sit with you at the end of the day we disconnect” because sometimes I go to sleep early so I don’t sit with my husband in the evening and sometimes he’s in a bad mood and he needs to sit alone to distress and so I don’t sit with him. So on those days we don’t connect but the days I sit with him even if we just sit and talk to each other for 5 minutes or just sit and hold hands, it makes a really big difference.

Anyway, back to how I was mindful today. I understood that my son really needed my attention today and I’ve been seeing these posts on Instagram by a parent therapist I follow and she talked recently about how we need to give children attention when they seek it, otherwise their need for attention will become greater and more negative so ever since I saw these posts, I’ve been trying to give my son attention when I feel like he needs it and surprisingly when I do give him the attention he needs, even if it’s for like 5 or 10 minutes (it’s usually for about 20 minutes) he eventually goes off and plays independently for at least an hour, but when I don’t give him attention he becomes very clingy and he starts acting out like he’s jealous from me being on the phone for example.
Yesterday, I wasn’t very mindful. That’s an understatement. I was very emotional and edgy and my son acted out because of that.

However, today I’ve been up since dawn and I noticed that when I’m up since dawn I’m in a better mood generally because I’ve had my me time in the morning before my son wakes up. I exercised. I watched Gilmore Girls. I had my coffee peacefully. So when my son woke up at 8:30 in the morning, I embraced him waking up and I hugged him tightly and I gave him all my love and attention and I made him feel like I was so happy that he woke up because I was, even though I was in the middle of watching Gilmore Girls, I just paused it and I gave him all my attention. Then I made him crepes for breakfast (they’re actually pancakes but I call them crepes so he’ll eat them) and we ate together and everytime I noticed that I was trying to read blogs while I was eating because I generally tend to do that, I would put my phone away and tell him I’m putting my phone away because I want to spend time with you. Then he had his screen time while I had my screen time at the same time. We both had an hour each which is a lot. Usually I don’t give him more than half an hour at a time but because I was really into the show I was watching…

Later on, he played by himself a little bit but then he started asking for attention again and then I remembered that for the past 3 days he’s been asking me for hot chocolate and so I told him let’s make hot chocolate! So I made hot chocolate for him and for me. It was so nice. I don’t really get to do these things with many people and I’m not one of those moms who consider her son her best friend but it felt really good to connect with my son like that and he even let me video him. Since he was 4 until he turned six, he wouldn’t let me video him or take pictures, but now he does. He even said “if you want you can send it to whoever you want, but just ask me first”.

I feel like he’s matured a lot and I feel like he’s learned a lot of things that I taught him. I can’t take full credit for how he is because I feel like he’s an amazing kid and when I nurture the amazing side of him it thrives but when I focus on the negative side of him, it increases.

Anyway,after the hot chocolate, I read him a story, and then he had homework and he did it without a fuss! He usually fights me when I ask him to do his homework. Also, he was great on his online classes and he didn’t even give me any trouble!
I feel like I’m reluctant to tell people when my son is being an angel because a lot of people around me are constantly telling me how their kids are driving them crazy especially with what’s going on this year, kids being at home and everything, but I feel like maybe people are like me and they do have good moments but are reluctant to share them just like me.

However, I’m afraid that if I share when I’m having a good day, I’d rub it in the faces of those having a bad day. Anyway, so I decided to share it here and maybe tell my dad. I feel like my dad is the only person I don’t have to worry about when sharing good news.

Also one other thing that happened today is that my son went to my in laws (hence the writing on the blog in broad daylight) and before he went, I made sure to change all his clothes and cut his nails and brushed his hair. I feel so proud of myself that I made sure he looked presentable because I don’t always go to that effort.
I didn’t even have the attitude like “ok go I need my me time”. I basically stayed home so that I could clean the bathrooms and yeah I won’t turn down some extra me time. Before he left, I looked at him and he looked so cute and so sweet and I asked if I could take his picture and he said yes and I said “I’m really going to miss you when you go” and then he said “do you want to give me something?” (I feel like sometimes he may be materialistic but I think it’s because gift receiving is his love language). I said “no I just wanted to tell you that I’m going to miss you” so he said “why don’t you make me a surprise when I come back” and I said “you know what I’ll think about it” so I’m thinking of baking him cookies. I know he loves cookies. But 1st I’m going to clean the 3rd bathroom then eat. I didn’t have lunch yet and it’s 5:30 p.m. and I think I’m probably going to end up not telling my dad what happened or maybe tomorrow I’ll tell him. I just wanted to write this here because I feel like I share more of the negatives than the positives mainly because when I vent about the negatives, I feel better and usually when I’m feeling positive I’m usually mindful about it and I don’t really share with people when I’m busy living in the moment. Sometimes I do but you know when you are having so much fun that you forget to take pictures, it’s that kind of mindfulness.

So there you have it. I was very mindful today and I’m proud of myself and I’m really happy at the moment even though there’s a lot of negative events occurring around me and it’s making me kind of feel guilty to be happy or to express my happiness but I feel like I just needed to let it out so I felt like the blog was the safest place for me to express myself because ironically, most of the people I know personally do not read my blogs.

Were you mindful today?

If not, did this post help by reminding you to be mindful?