Hello and welcome to my blog! I hope you are doing well. I’m feeling a bit moody today (I know, I’m always moody) because of the heat, and because it’s almost August.
The end of a month always has me nostalgic. I look back on my life and my choices often, and I am filled with regret. Then I tell myself that I wouldn’t be where I am today if I hadn’t made most of those choices.
Still, as the month comes to an end, I can’t help but wonder if I’m headed in the right direction. I blame a lot on anxiety and depression, but what if I’m just not a nice person and everybody does secretly hate me?
As the month comes to an end, I can’t help but wonder if I’m making the right goals, if I’m focusing on the right things. Tensions rise and fall. Sometimes I’m the poster child. Other times, I feel like nobody wants to spend time with me. And days like today, I didn’t want to spend time with anyone.
We managed to get ice cream and it was good, but I can’t help but feel that I made a few mistakes. Am I a good person? I don’t know. Most of the time I don’t think I’m very nice.
But as July comes to an end and August is on the horizon, I renew my efforts to become better than the person I was yesterday, to become kinder, more loving, more forgiving, because in the end, that is all that matters…
It’s not that smiling is awfully difficult for me to do, but because I’m at home 90% of the time, and when I do go out, I wear a mask so I can’t exactly smile at anyone. Today, though, I made an effort to smile at my in laws whenever I made eye contact. I’m usually not a smiley person since I became a mom, so I think they may have found it creepy or awkward. I hope my smile seemed genuine because I was so self conscious about it.
Are you a smiley person?
Now I’m done with the new year, new you challenge.
This challenge isn’t really a challenge for me. Basically all the meals I cook for lunch are healthy. I can’t say the same for breakfast and dinner (remember in Arab countries, lunch and dinner are switched so when I say lunch, I mean the main course).
The challenge here is that today is Thursday, but I cook every Monday, and sometimes on Thursday but not today. I was going to explain why but I’m trying not to defend my lifestyle, whether I’m okay with it or not.
Anyway, so I’m considering this challenge done. In case you didn’t know, I’m not very passionate about cooking. I mean, I know how to cook many meals but I only interest myself in cooking the limited meals that my picky husband and son will eat. Even if I like a meal and they don’t, I won’t bother cooking it unless I’m really craving it. I’m not even interested in trying new recipes (unless it’s for cake and cookies because baking I like).
Do you cook daily or weekly or somewhere in between?
Hello and welcome to my blog! Welcome to the new month, new challenge series where I do a challenge each day and share it here so you can do it with me. Now why is it that when you have something to do, and you know you’ll feel better after you do it, you tend to do anything but that thing? Anyone? Just me? Anyway…
I’m a tidy person in general. I don’t pile up dishes and laundry, I make the beds as soon as I wake up, and I even have a cleaning schedule. However, since today’s challenge was cleaning, I found my to do list very daunting. It suddenly felt like the weight of the world was on my shoulders, and my heart clenched, and I didn’t feel like doing anything (that could also be because I’ve been feeling a bit exhausted and overwhelmed for the past few days), but nothing a nice walk couldn’t cure.
I did the dishes and laundry and then rewarded myself with a walk to the supermarket where I bought a lot of junk food, then walked back and did more housework after rewarding myself with a chocolate bar. Now I’m rewarding myself with chips.
Now excuse me while I tend to my 6 year old who has a minor blister on his foot but is acting like he’s been shot.
Hello and welcome to my blog! Welcome to the new month, new challenge series where I do a challenge each day and share it here so you can do it with me. This challenge was actually about a week ago but I wasn’t able to do it until today.
Well today was my lucky day. Not only did I spend zero minutes on instagram, Facebook and Twitter…but I also played Ludo with my 6 year old, visited my grandparents and saw my sisters and parents, and swung by my in laws for a bit. So you can say I crushed the challenge today!
I’m exhausted though. I’ve been up since 6 am and it’s 10 pm. I woke my son up at 8 am in the hopes that he will sleep earlier tonight but that doesn’t seem to be happening. I’m going to sleep anyway because I’m so tired I’m dizzy. Good night
Hello and welcome to my blog! Welcome to the new month, new challenge series where I do a challenge each day and share it here so you can do it with me. Today’s challenge was a bit difficult. It’s easier for me to do a quantitative challenge, like “exercise for 10 minutes” rather than a qualitative one like “be mindful today” because the 1st, I can do and be done with it, whereas the 2nd can’t be measured and must be done all day.
It’s hard to eliminate negative thoughts, but I made sure I was more aware of these negative thoughts and didn’t act on them. It’s tricky to determine whether or not I did this challenge but I tried, so A for effort?
I immediately thought of a dear friend who I used to call every Friday until she got a full time job. Now we barely talk once a month. I decided to see if she is free to phone call today. Fingers crossed. But 1st, I need to wake up my 6 year old and make sure he has his breakfast before 10 am.
Update: I called this friend and was able to talk for 95 minutes. I had to hang up because my son has online classes in 10 minutes. It was a very pleasant phone call.
Hello and welcome to my blog! Welcome to the new month, new challenge series. My heart is so heavy today. As much as yesterday was amazing, as much as today has been awful. Not all day, but certain aspects and certain people.
I don’t like being bossed around. I don’t think anyone does. Yet when me and someone don’t see eye to eye, I used to always compromise. Now I fight back, and it always ends up in me crying. When I’m hurt, I tend to hurt back. I used to feel guilty about it but I don’t anymore. I feel so stuck, so helpless. I feel miserable. I’m trying to focus on what I can do, instead of focusing on my helplessness and the heaviness on my chest.
I went hiking yesterday but I don’t know if that counts as relaxing (I was too tired to post yesterday). The nature scene was relaxing. I was feeling very happy but it’s hard to remain happy today when you’re surrounded by grumpy people. I don’t want to go into more detail but I guess I have to dial down my happiness without letting their grumpiness affect me.
Here are some photos from my 1st hike ever! I wanted to make a post about the hiking trip and experience but today is Sunday so I don’t think I’ll have the time and energy. Anyway, enjoy these nature pictures from yesterday: